Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Seriously I have spent a decent portion of the last 24 hours feeding and rocking my baby. I'm not stupid, I know that's what moms just do; why I am having such a hard time??? He won't sleep. I can spend an hour feeding, rocking and holding him while he is on the verge of complete exhaustion and he won't give in. And when he does he fidgets the whole time so that he usually wakes up ten minutes later and barely gets any real rest. It is so frustrating. How am I ever going to work from home if it takes me three hours to get my screaming baby to take a nap? I seriously go through the routine of changing, feeding and rocking several times before he finally succumbs. Sometimes he doesn't sleep more than eight hours in a twenty four hour period. This can't be normal. Am I crazy or is my kid? He just fights it so hard and I wish I knew why because we are both miserable with this sort of routine. He finally did today and I didn't even feel guilty about running to the gas station, getting a big diet coke and chilling by the pool for an hour...he was asleep and Adam was home, so don't think I'm a terrible mom. I'm just a bad one. Good thing he's so cute and squishy.